Breaking Point

Everyone starts stressing at this point with midterms coming up and i feel as though i am not at that point like everyone else. While i had a calculus exam this last friday and i have a spanish exam this coming tuesday....im not totally stressing because their not called midterms. They are literally just exams like any other one we would take. I had one midterm and it was in february for bowling plus of course the one we had in X158 but those were stressful tests for me.

Don't get me wrong, calculus exams totally freak me out and i am just hoping that i did well enough on it. As for spanish, i get most of it so i know i can study and do pretty well. As long as i don't psych myself out like i normally do on tests, because i can't stand taking tests, then i actually think i will pull off good grades.

After saying this, even though i am saying that i am not freaking out because i have exams not midterms and i think ill do good....i am totally freaking out because i am afraid that i will overestimate how well i am doing and totally suck in the class and then my GPA at midterm grades goes down and probation just sucks everything out of my life.

While i am totally worrying about midterm grades, i am also worried about picking classes for the fall because that has to be determined around this time as well. The fact that i am changing my major so i have to know rearrange what classes need to be taken, my parents worry i am trying to take on too much at one time again and i could agree but i also don't want to back down from challenging myself just because i was put on probation and it seems like i can't handle it all.

In the end, my calculus test is over with and now i just wait for the results. I have today/tonight and tomorrow to finalize the studying for my spanish exam and i will talk with my advisor about classes and know that it will all get figured out. Because in the end, everything works itself out the way its meant to be.